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Quality Time with Parents

Four days of  wonderful fun-filled quality time spent with my mama and papa.

posted by: Hunny2DB at 07/30/07 23:49 | link | comments |

Convocation and Meeting of the Parents

Hectic but very interesting and fun-filled week so far. July 25 was a very unforgettable day!  (details later)

July 24 - Fetched my parents at the airport - Budget Terminal via Cebu Pacific. Finally, J met them. We took a cab all the way back to Boon Lay. Gravash! End to end itu. My love was generous enough to pay for the taxi fare.

July 25 - Only had two hours of sleep. I was harrassed preparing breakfast and getting dressed for the freakin' convocation at 10AM. I don't know who's patience was tested on this day since I was kinda panicking already when J realized that he had to delete all my files from my memory card so we could use it in taking my grad photos (digicam courtesy of D.) I already asked him to bring his sd card a day before but he forgot to do so. I was literally screaming at him to forget the whole thing as my parents were already waiting downstairs on a taxi. But he pretended not to hear me and still went on at past 9am. ugh! After my frantic reaction, it was as if all my strength was lost when we finally went inside the cab with. At least my tantrum didn't go to waste since my ever tolerant J was still able to successfully use the digicam. *sigh* I love you my lao gong. Dui bu qi for my brattiness...

July 26 -

posted by: Hunny2DB at 07/27/07 15:22 | link | comments |
paranoia, blessings, labslayp, my lao gong

Laminday

Ilonggo word for procrastination... I hate it! Why didn't my parents instill in me a sense of urgency when I was still little? My mom would use to say, "daig ng maagap ang masikap" but it didn't quite sink into this puny brain of mine. I would always find myself cramming... doing stuff at the last minute. I would always be "saved by the bell", but more often, I just had to suffer the consequences of being late for school, in submission of my school work, in my appointments, in submission of projects, in meeting deadlines, in weddings and other occasions, in church, in meetings, etc., etc. My officemates used to say: Here comes "the late" Hunny! Argh! And oftentimes, I would miss out on the fun at parties and events or I end up with projects with mediocre results   Is it too late to change now? Is this a curse or just a really, really bad habit that is soooo hard to break? How many times did it cause me despair, frustration and oftentimes depression due to resentments towards my self and regrets that I had to live with... until now. Is this such an incurable disease? I've hated myself for this, for a very long time now. I tried to let go of this habit... there were times that I was successful. But with regard to major things, I still find myself a failure. Succumbing even more to hopelessness and deeper regrets as I see myself going through it.. over and over again. Why is it that the rush that I get from cramming gives me that certain pressure that I need to get things done, yet with a very little time left? Why can't I grasp the goodness of having foresight? Of planning way ahead? I think this is the downside of extreme spontaneity. And one thing's for sure, I want out. NOW.

posted by: Hunny2DB at 07/17/07 15:49 | link | comments |
paranoia, tamang emote

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