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Hectic Torturous Weekend

Nov. 26

> Lazy Day. Nevertheless, I managed to drag myself out of my bed and get to the office in time for the meet up. Went to GLines 2nd year anniversary party at Ramsky's Garden in QC together with my boss and some of my officemates. It was fun... Food was ok... Laugh trip, good music and some were drunk and wacky enough to do the PBB dance... I had one pathetic bottle of Sanmig Lite. First text after the awful chat session. No reply... hay...

Nov. 27

> Went to Sunday Service at Shangri-la. Met up with V and A at Tayuman LRT station. I was late but just a bit... Went straight to SM San Lazaro - bought gift - books. Proceeded to SM Storyland.  We three posed as receptionists for the children's bday party of our beloved inaanak - Raphael...  We were in-charged of asking the names of the kids and writing their names on party hats... fun... Had a nightcap with V at Gloria Jean's Glorietta... Talking about our pathetic love lives... Called him on his cellphone when I got home... busy... off... then.. it just kept on ringing...

Nov. 28

> Decided to do clean-up in my room. I guess it's about time for me to de-clutter... Still tried to contact him.  Texted him na magbati na kami... Dedma... Called him up again... No answer....

Went to the Rusty Lopez Fab 8 Fashion Show at NBC Tent, hosted by PIa Guanio - courtesy of my bestfriend J - Umaapaw ang pagkain, as in literally!  MYMP played and it was a blast!  I told him about this last week... as if naman makakasama siya... I also invited "her" but I knew it was a long shot.  Good thing my "long lost"  brother arrived.  It was fun too!

And tonight.. It will be ULTRAELECTROMAGNETICJAM Album Launch and Tribute Concert to the one and only living legend - ERASERHEADS... at UP Theater - I will be with my two best girlfriends...

Yup... still no boyfriend in sight... and I'm going out of my mind...  howell...

posted by: Hunny2DB at 11/29/05 13:40 | link | comments |

Obssessive-Possessive

I didn't realize that i have the tendency to be possessive.  Not until he blatantly pointed it out to me last night. Wow... Was I hurt? Did it hit me straight to the heart? Probably... But I was too numb to feel anything...  Then again... I think my alleged  behavior didn't really fit the definition of what a possessive person actually is. I knew where he was coming from... I understand him... I really do... I just hoped he'd understand me the same way... I just wanted to be with him... not as often as I think we could be... We could have come up with a compromise... maybe we could see each other once a month at least? If only he wouldn't be too emotional everytime I bring it up...  Damn... it's starting to be a vicious cycle and he never fails to make me feel that it's always my fault everytime this issue is brought up...

My friend who already met him jokingly said that I was absolutely not possessive... but obssessed about him.. Hmmmm... maybe...  But how can it be an obssession when we have just seen each other once?

Soliloquy - The problem with you is that you always get into his nerves because of your being "makulit" - hay hay hay... Pano yan... di ka na niya kakausapin ulit... so ano na gagawin mo? Maghihintay ka na naman sa wala... alam mo.. tama ang sinabi sayo nung isang "bata" - "you have this talent to push the wrong buttons" - shet! di bale! talentada ka naman talaga eh... leche...

posted by: Hunny2DB at 11/25/05 20:48 | link | comments |

Random Hurts

Lately,  I've been pondering on some things that happened in the distant past and not-so-distant past as well.  About being hurt, wounded, battered physically, mentally, emotionally...

Being a child of a military man, I was brought up in a way that spanking by my father's bare hand, belt or any stick is but ordinary. I remember fully in my early childhood years - as young as prep,  when I had to go to school with markings of my father's belt all over my body, sad thing was I couldn't recall why did he hit me for.  I don't even remember how painful it was but the shame that I had to go through bearing those embarassing lashes... still lingers until today... yep... physical hurt fades away... even scars become unnoticeable in time... but the mental and emotional repercussions remain... for life...

Now that I'm all grown up... I've become more susceptible to emotional and mental hurt/woundedness... which I believe is more hard and painful to bear... harder to forget...

haay.. TBC

posted by: Hunny2DB at 11/23/05 17:50 | link | comments (1) |

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